Movie references make the world go round

Well the way I see it, love them or hate them the forces of both good and evil are here to stay. But I think for the point of things I wish to speak of Good and Evil are Inappropriate words due to the emotions and thoughts put into the words. Instead of sitting around and debating what belongs in the category of 'Necessary Evil' or just plain 'Evil' like a pile of simpletons let us call the forces “Light side” and “Dark Side”-- a little geeky and frankly not much better but it's a step in the right direction.

Now personally I consider myself a person who is on the light side, contrary to the impression my Avatar and online advocate might give. What I mean by Light side is when I played Harry Potter games with my friends I always wanted to be in Gryffindor, and when I played Star Wars I was always a Jedi. However I always, as I am sure most youngsters do, found and frankly still do find the Dark side, seductive on many levels. For instance, my ideal girl, as unhealthy and, well, stupid as it may be. is someone who reminds me of Marla Singer from Fight Club. And by that I do not mean Helena Bonham Carter's devilish good looks, although that would be a definite plus. No, but someone who reminds me of the unstable and dark character. However when I say seduce I don't just mean someone who catches the attention of Mr.Wigglesworth. No I mean the dark side seduces me on other levels. For instance, somewhere between the ages of seven and ten I had been known to point my finger at people on the bus and chant “Avada Kedavra” because I was SO stable and valued human life so highly. Yes I must admit as a child I did nurture a small fantasy of surpassing as a Dark Lord and having him be my lap dog. That was as child, mind; I harbor no fantasies of world domination anymore.....what?

Despite the impression I may have just given you of me being a blood thirsty mini sociopath, I stand by my claim of considering myself one of the good guys. I will not, however, say I have never come close to switching my team. However every time I consider switching sides or doing something a little TOO devious the same image snaps me back into place. If you must know what that image is, it is my mother, kicking my hairy ass. Oh you may laugh at me all you want; you can mock me, but if you do you only make it painfully clear you have never meet She-who-must-be-obeyed. I naturally considered waiting until she died before turning to the dark side. Unfortunately I think I'm safer from her wrath while she lives. A scary lady pissed at you who can walk through walls? Forget that!

At any rate I am forced to move on and strive for the greater good, simply because I'm, for lack of a better word, too melodramatic to pick anything other then the two extremes.

Now that we're done speaking of yours truly, let us take a look at my generation as a whole, hmm? And if you did not read my last blog, I'm 18. Now the way I see it people my age desperately want a cause, desperately want something to fight for even if it does not show. The only problem is the only thing we've been handed is the war in the middle east, how is that worthy? I believe that my generation craves something more, something that actually means something—like abolishing the Nazis or landing on the moon. But what do we have? Childhood obesity and the inheritance of a large debt? A depression and recession was not exactly what we had our hopes up for. So perhaps that explains a lot why so many of people my age are angry (goths) or chronically sad (emos) It's not because they seek attention and they're spoiled white collar children who crave attention. No, I think they have one thing right. No one understands their pain, not even themselves. They give half-assed bull shit excuses as to why they do what they do, relish the darkness and anger because they themselves don't understand the void, the need to raise and stand for something.


So basically what I am saying is that with no need or pressure to pick a side, light or dark, they pick dark simply because it offers instant gratification. In retrospect what else can you expect? Staying on the light side is hard. There are times when you have no faith, times you think it's all smoke and mirrors, and that it does not matter either way. It is in times like these you desperately need to look around and see that the gratification is not instant, but it's there; there is a reason its called the greater good.

In conclusion I expect there is nothing more I can say except, hold on. Don't give in to Existentialist angst; hold you're head up high and wait. I don't think it will be long before we have something to fight for, to believe in, something Real. Until then tell me:

Is Mr.Wigglesworth and the tid bits a good name for a band?

The Concept of Hope.

As an eighteen year old male living in new york city. I of course know everything. It is a well established fact that teenagers being the little hormone excrements they are only think they know better then adults. But of course the 18 year old breed of the species is superior simply because they or rather we are adults. I may have only been 18 for one month five days twelve hours and fifty minutes but I assure you. I am the most intelligent person on earth.

Sarcasm aside it is slightly frustrating when an adult normally of the 35+ variety is all willing to throw their arms open and welcome a new age and empire of hope and change. Now if they want to jump on the band wagon there be my guest but for pity's sake stop rolling you're eyes at me for being skeptical. I did not even understand what a president was until my mother explained the oral oops I mean oval office to me. Yes I know tactless but alas. Now allow me set the record straight. I have nothing against President Obama. He's the first Hawaiian president America has ever had and I think that shows great maturity on it's part ready to trust the islands. But why believe he is the second coming himself so fast?

Personally I think it's nothing short of a miracle that I have any faith in the presidential system at all. Let's have a brief overview of my past relationships with presidents Give or take the fiasco with President Clinton was in 1998 from what my vague and lazy googleing tells me so I was 9 about the time I started comprehended what was going on. Whether that is a normal age I do not know. If that's late my only defense is I avoided the news ever since. Someone of a religious nature died whom I cannot recall and when the news report stated that the man had died I stated that was a good thing since this was boring. What turned me off the news however was not that but the slap on the face I received and the telling off form my grandmother. For some reason I connected that with the news and not my own early signs of pain-in-the-ass-pergers syndrome. It's a real one look it up. In hindsight however I realize I was less then tactful.

I digress, After the Clinton event the first major thing that took my attention was Septembers eleven. I was not in the states at the time but I knew two things. The grief even all the way in Europe as an American was overwhelming. Secondly even as a ten year old I could tell the man in charge who was supposed to be the hero of the hour. Was a babbling idiot. I shan't divulge any further no more explanation needed I Expect.

So here we are Obama has been in office almost a week and nothing has blown up yet. Well almost nothing but I forgot about the can and microwave thing. But Obama did ban the use of torture and is closing Guantanamo bay I think I'm a tad lazy with research. So because of that I dare say I am willing to give the man a chance.

What I'm trying to say here is do not expect youthful Americans or non Americans to simply put all our hopes into a single man, a mortal. Especially after the examples we've seen in our life time.

Unfortunately I could not partake in the election I turned 18 in December if you where too lazy to do the above math. I would often rant my displeasure at my mother about it telling her she should have popped me out sooner. She told me she'd take that into account next time. And Obama is not the man I would have voted for in the primary's but without a doubt in the final duel if you will, then yes without a doubt he would have had my support over Bush 2.0 And I will say this since I do not think I have shown you all what a geek I am I will quote a recent block buster “Obama is not the president america deserves, but the one it needs right now...” When you figure out what movie is you'll find its semi appropriate.

Oh and President obama if you read this, would you mind taking care of that parking ticket for me? Much appreciated, cheers.