Movie references make the world go round

Well the way I see it, love them or hate them the forces of both good and evil are here to stay. But I think for the point of things I wish to speak of Good and Evil are Inappropriate words due to the emotions and thoughts put into the words. Instead of sitting around and debating what belongs in the category of 'Necessary Evil' or just plain 'Evil' like a pile of simpletons let us call the forces “Light side” and “Dark Side”-- a little geeky and frankly not much better but it's a step in the right direction.

Now personally I consider myself a person who is on the light side, contrary to the impression my Avatar and online advocate might give. What I mean by Light side is when I played Harry Potter games with my friends I always wanted to be in Gryffindor, and when I played Star Wars I was always a Jedi. However I always, as I am sure most youngsters do, found and frankly still do find the Dark side, seductive on many levels. For instance, my ideal girl, as unhealthy and, well, stupid as it may be. is someone who reminds me of Marla Singer from Fight Club. And by that I do not mean Helena Bonham Carter's devilish good looks, although that would be a definite plus. No, but someone who reminds me of the unstable and dark character. However when I say seduce I don't just mean someone who catches the attention of Mr.Wigglesworth. No I mean the dark side seduces me on other levels. For instance, somewhere between the ages of seven and ten I had been known to point my finger at people on the bus and chant “Avada Kedavra” because I was SO stable and valued human life so highly. Yes I must admit as a child I did nurture a small fantasy of surpassing as a Dark Lord and having him be my lap dog. That was as child, mind; I harbor no fantasies of world domination anymore.....what?

Despite the impression I may have just given you of me being a blood thirsty mini sociopath, I stand by my claim of considering myself one of the good guys. I will not, however, say I have never come close to switching my team. However every time I consider switching sides or doing something a little TOO devious the same image snaps me back into place. If you must know what that image is, it is my mother, kicking my hairy ass. Oh you may laugh at me all you want; you can mock me, but if you do you only make it painfully clear you have never meet She-who-must-be-obeyed. I naturally considered waiting until she died before turning to the dark side. Unfortunately I think I'm safer from her wrath while she lives. A scary lady pissed at you who can walk through walls? Forget that!

At any rate I am forced to move on and strive for the greater good, simply because I'm, for lack of a better word, too melodramatic to pick anything other then the two extremes.

Now that we're done speaking of yours truly, let us take a look at my generation as a whole, hmm? And if you did not read my last blog, I'm 18. Now the way I see it people my age desperately want a cause, desperately want something to fight for even if it does not show. The only problem is the only thing we've been handed is the war in the middle east, how is that worthy? I believe that my generation craves something more, something that actually means something—like abolishing the Nazis or landing on the moon. But what do we have? Childhood obesity and the inheritance of a large debt? A depression and recession was not exactly what we had our hopes up for. So perhaps that explains a lot why so many of people my age are angry (goths) or chronically sad (emos) It's not because they seek attention and they're spoiled white collar children who crave attention. No, I think they have one thing right. No one understands their pain, not even themselves. They give half-assed bull shit excuses as to why they do what they do, relish the darkness and anger because they themselves don't understand the void, the need to raise and stand for something.


So basically what I am saying is that with no need or pressure to pick a side, light or dark, they pick dark simply because it offers instant gratification. In retrospect what else can you expect? Staying on the light side is hard. There are times when you have no faith, times you think it's all smoke and mirrors, and that it does not matter either way. It is in times like these you desperately need to look around and see that the gratification is not instant, but it's there; there is a reason its called the greater good.

In conclusion I expect there is nothing more I can say except, hold on. Don't give in to Existentialist angst; hold you're head up high and wait. I don't think it will be long before we have something to fight for, to believe in, something Real. Until then tell me:

Is Mr.Wigglesworth and the tid bits a good name for a band?